OMG.. got to drive her car today woot

Todtstoy · Post by **Todtstoy** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 3:38 am

2005 camaro.. omg.. so sweet. was doing 90 before i knew it. LoL Nancy is at the stage now where the cancer in her brain is making her get strange cravings. She woke up saying my brain is telling me i am starving for food. Real food.. not that damn broth and apple sause she has been eatting. ( I share a can of chicken noodle soup with her every day. I pour the broth in a boul for her and i eat the noodles) She couldn't decide if she wanted spegetti, pizza,chicken gizzards, shrimp or a cheese burger. The DR warned us this might happen and to give her what she wanted if we could. She finally choose 2 cheese burgers with just tomatoes from Checkers. What was I to do? I jumped in her hot rod and flew like a bat out of hell there and back. Poor thing ate 4 lil bite and puked for 30 minutes. She looked up at me and said.. to hell with my brain.. it don't know what it is thinking right now. My belly cant take this stuff. Then she said not to listen to her anymore. To make her eat that damn soup. Bless her heart. She is only able to sip a couple ounces of soup or juice a day as it is. The Dr said today it wouldn't be much longer now. Her liver has canser in it now too and is shutting down. There is tiny pieces coming through her catather. Right now she is awake about every 3 hours for about 10.. 15 minutes at a time. I get her up and into the wheelchair to come smoke a cigarette or 2. Says theey killed her might as well take them to the grave. She is a fistey old bird. I am sleeping as much as i can.. take lots of cat napsin the chair. I swear when this is over I will never sit in another straight backed wooden chair again. I have to sit in the kitchen chair or fall asleep. LoL.. this from the woman who spent days with no sleep. Well I am off to try to catch a couple hours of good sleep. She took a sleeping pill and a darvocet a little while ago.. maybe i'll catch a break and sleep a couple hours straight through. Big big hugs to my LD family. Thank you so much for letting me ramble here like this. You are keeping me sane and going on. Night night my friends.

Julie Ann

Laseirna · Post by **Laseirna** » Wed Jul 06, 2005 4:18 am

Sounds like a really nice car!

This is a gross question but I'm the curious type. When you say bits in the catheter are you talking about her liver? Does this mean her liver is ending up in her kidneys? Feel free to not answer if I'm prying.

The body is a miracle when you think about it and when it starts to go wrong you become aware of just what a miracle it is.

Todtstoy · Post by **Todtstoy** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 2:29 am

The nurse said her organs are breaking down.. the sediment in her urin is bits of her being filtered out. Last night and today was pretty bad. I don't thinnk this will be much longer. I asked the nurse about setting up someone to come stay with Nancy for the week todt comes in. She said Nancy wouldn't be here that long.. sigh I hope not.. if so I will REALLY be ready for some rest then. This is just so very hard to sit and watch.

Big Mac Attack · Post by **Big Mac Attack** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 4:59 am

this is kind of a grim first post for me, but i had a similar, although not quite as trying, experience. the same thing happen with a family member of mine...he got testicular cancer and it spread into his lungs, i helped take care of him while he was going through chemo...and its difficult. thank heavens the doctors did find it in time to operate and he is making a recovery, but its slow and he will be fine eventually.

as painful as it is, at least you know that when she goes, she won't be suffering anymore, its amazing how fragile the body really is.

Cymry · Post by **Cymry** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 11:37 am

Todtstoy, you are a blessing to your Aunt Nancy and a wonderful challenge to the rest of us. If the time were to ever come that I should have to care for a family member in his/her last days I pray I can show as much compassion and fortitude as you have. You will surely have a "star in your crown!" When this is over, you deserve a good, long rest. I am praying for strength and peaceful rest for you.

delightfulrose · Post by **delightfulrose** » Thu Jul 07, 2005 3:28 pm

My Sweet Sunshine, I pray that your aunt does not suffer any longe and soon will be come your angel like you have been to her in these last few days. I am here for you at any time just let me know if there is anything I can do for you If you need to talk you can call me collect **********
I'll be off today,tomorrow, monday, wed, that i know of so far. Love and misses you bunches!!!

Love always,
Your flower

Todtstoy · Post by **Todtstoy** » Fri Jul 08, 2005 3:47 am

First let me say hi and welcome to the family Big Mac. I am sorry I am not there to help you settle in. I am usually ingame 15 or so hours a day playing. Thank you for making me your first post. Hopefully I can be back soon to really welcome you

Thanks go to everyone else for being here with me in these trying times. I am very touched by the kindness our clan has. Altho this is just a game there are real people playing it. I find I am very blessed to know each and everyone of you.

I don't see Aunt Nancy living beyound the 12th. Her daughter was murdered on July 12th 1984. Today would have been Katies birthday. It was a REALLY long day. Well the night before wasn't too good either. Awww heck none of it is any good.. today was just really bad. I think I am off to bed now. Thanks for being here for me y'all

Todtstoy · Post by **Todtstoy** » Fri Jul 08, 2005 3:52 am

Flower!!!! What are you thinking about??? Do I have to come whoop your butt?? DON'T EVER post your phone number on ANY bourd like that. If you can still edit your post.. do so NOW!! If not.. The powers that be need to get in here and do it ASAP. Darn it flower.. I love you but dang it. You worry me to death. Bless your heart. I really need to get back home to take care of all my babies.. specially you. My silly girl. I love you bunches and will call tomorrow if I can. We will see how things go. kiss kiss kiss pretty flower

Big Mac Attack · Post by **Big Mac Attack** » Fri Jul 08, 2005 6:45 am

your aunt sounds like she has had a very trying life...i sincerely hope that when she stops suffering, it will ease everyone mind and soul.